Build Better Forms! An exercise in rhythm

Yesterday I thought about writing a post because it was Sunday, wasn't sure what to write, spent a while seeing if I could work out a way to do it on my phone instead, and (three abortive mobile github app installations later) abandoned the attempt. Today, I feel like I have lots of threads I would like to at least start, even if I don't have the... stamina? work ethic? dedication?... to write about them in a fully developed way (because, as we learned, this is hard).

That can come out of the brackets for later. Writing about things is hard.

So, what can we take from this?

1. I am interested in/my PhD was about the way we construct identities in time, and whether understanding identities as rhythms is... helpful, I guess? I could say: whether identities are rhythms, but that feels too opaque to be the aforementioned kind of helpful that I'm looking for. What kind of helpful (/productive/useful - all dangerous words in different ways) am I looking for? What would understanding identity as rhythm help us with? The dream is that it would help us make identities that are better - and I suppose I'm primarily talking about our own identity here (so self-centred) (not even sorry) - again raising the question of "better" in what way? (more productive? But what do they produce?? More useful? Fucking tool-based thinking, ready-to-fucking-hand my unHeideggerian arse, okay that got unexpectedly sexual anyway, tldr, language and ethics is hard) (mind out of the phallocentric gutter there).
   
   Generative, maybe? That feels better than productive, at least? ("Generative" was one of the three words I made myself into out of tinfoil a couple of weeks back) (I mentioned that, right? Yep, there we go.)
2. Rhythms are constructed via repetition, and the variation from/within this.
3. Part of this - when we think about our own identity - is to do with habit. There's a whole thing about the interplay between rhythm and meter (which I want to write about properly sometime) (what a Kafkaesque queue that is to join), but whatever they are, they aren't opposites - rhythm/flow/Dionysian Rausch is not the opposite of meter/Apolline structure, Deleuze's first synthesis of time is not divorced from the other two.
4. Writing things is hard (see above, that's why it came out of the brackets). Sometimes you don't feel like it. Sometimes you start doing it anyway and it feels better (hence a regular posting schedule). Sometimes you don't, and read until 4am instead and then write the following day, and that feels better (hence deviation from the same).
5. I said that was what my PhD was about, but I don't know that it ever got that far really... it was more the arguing that one could/should understand identity as rhythm, rather than speculating as to what one might do with this knowledge.

So maybe I'm offering this post up here instead. I now have the ridiculous title in my head "Build Better Forms! An exercise in rhythm." Suggestions as to what this could be the title of are welcomed, if currently impossible. Probably of this post. That would make sense.

In other news/things I was originally thinking about before I went off on a tangent - this post is written experimentally on my phone, even if I'm going to need to get the computer to post it; and (on the subject of things I want to write about that wouldn't fit into the PhD) - Minkowski and depression; Bachelard and forgetting. They're both related to all the above, so note to self/teaser: write about those sometime. I'm now off to make a sandwich.